Happy birthday Ma,
Hey Ma, how are you?
I’ve been in a really bad state since we last spoke. I have not been myself, I’ve been a like zombie, rarely sleeping, accomplishing inconsequential exploits. Producing a pale shadow of my usual creative flame engulfed in ambitious tasks. I Felt like I should write you a message on my blog here since you said, in one of our recent conversation you’d start reading and wanted to help with proofreading once I start going hard at writing on it again. So yea I’m gonna go hard Ma. Maybe some readers might benefit from this open letter, maybe even me 🙂 My projects have never been immune to the trials and tribulations that we all face but it just seems with this blog project it’s an extreme case. “Something”keeps …. IDK …running interference…..
Like you always tell me you gotta keep on punching! punching! punching! … but I Feel like I have to say something to the dedicated readers even though I’m mostly telling them, Hold strong, hold the line with the following statement.
Lots of bad stuff has happened and Nothing worse could possibly happen now ! Right Ma? Nothing this level anyway.
It all hit me hard today, all that has occurred in the last while. I’ve been thinking a lot about this blog project and you. Yea, I’ve been thinking a lot about you, ma. Actually In all honesty there’s been very little else on my mind the past few months. So I guess putting the blog and you together today, makes sense, maybe it only makes sense to me but whatever. I can do whatever, I’m a ROK star.
Oh yea Before I forget, remember the leather bracelet I made you when I was a kid? Yea I straight jacked it out of your bedroom. It’s safe don’t worry 🙂
Back to the point of today, I don’t remember if I ever explained why I started dedicating my day of birth to you but I’m gonna make my kids do the same thing to their Mother. Anyways, it went something like this.
Me and my friend were discussing the effects of consumer societies on human relationships and cultures. We speculated that a preoccupation with gifts on one’s birthday, which is done in the extreme in the western world, kinda promotes narcissistic behavior. In trying to find a solution to the dilemma. We wondered ourselves what was done on birthdays in our culture if anything pre-contact. After comparing notes in each respective family, We quickly realized being teenagers growing up in a post colonial era none of us actually knew on the spot so we decided to start our own tradition that has a bit more meaning to it. Also it keeps us honoring what all you moms do for us. Kind of like Mother’s Day but more of direct context than an arbitrary day with it being on the day of birth of the person throwing the celebration for their mom.
So yea, this is about you not me. I’ll always be thankful for the sacrifices you made to bring me into this world and I respect that special relationship I have with you that I have with nobody else. I love you so much Ma! I won’t squander the investment you made in me when you made me. Without your sacrifices, there is no me. I’m forever in your debt. I promise you I will honour your gift and not waste any of the time I have left. I promise you I WILL CHANGE THE WORLD. I am on a mission! It’s gonna be fun, hard and hopefully rewarding journey !
I was gonna surprise you and fly in to see you for your actual day of birth since there was a gonna be a shindig but as you know my booking turned out to be a few days Too late to workout for us.
A few days before that planned trip, I got a phone call and four words into the conversation it instantly became the worst day of my life. I just always thought I’d get one more… one more anything with you. I’ve been devastated that day, the day I lost you.
Dec 21st …. this is how we chill , 2016 til ∞
I don’t know how it works now, if the snow was a sign from you or not but it came all at once today. It’s been green up til today. Exactly like you said it happened the day I came into this world… I’ll miss hearing your voice tell me that story every year like you have for the past 3o ish….
There’s a lot of new features coming to the website in the very near future.
I think your gonna love em all but first off :
INTRODUCING !!! THE FAT-PROOF CHRONICLES!!!
“The Good Things Come To Those Who Wait ” Heinz Ketchup
CHIEFROK IS BACK!!!!!!!!!
“My life a car crash on the side of the road, y’all slowin’ down to watch ” Chino XL – 2001
I’m Feeling a little bit like Bruce Willis in unbreakable right about now.
I Didn’t figure it would take so long to do another post but Yea, I feel the need to express a few thoughts in regards to that and how it relates to the big picture and helping you all get some success and well, at the same time understand me a little better and why it goes slow at times lol. I’ve got a crazy year going where you have just about everything but a martian invasion popping off. The day after I posted Hiatus Status part 1 I was talking to my Mama and found out her cancer is rearing it’s ugly head again after quite a nice long remission. These were the type of crazy things I thought were behind me when I wrote the Hiatus Status and it slowed me down in general. Then a week of intense Rez-olicious drama segued into an epic car crash!
CAPTAINS LOG, STAR-DATE 2013.220 :
I’ve tried to get back to the blog grind but I have had a lot on my plate and something just made me walk away from the computer before finishing every time. I had to root down and focus on essentials for a while but I’m ready to give it another focused go again. I’m really exited to see participation going on without me good job peoples!. Now let’s see how many post I can pop out before anything major prevents future work from getting done in a timely manner. Perhaps with your help I’ll get em’ all done and together we can change the world! I’m sending this post out instead of one of the many 90% finished ones that some of you may be waiting. I’m doing this in order to ” burn my boats” and get started and hold myself to another go without editing getting in the way. I can drop a captain’s log and flush without feeling the need to get it perfect ya’ know what I mean.
Alot has transpired in the past few months, One of my brothers ended up in a coma ( he’s out ), another one mauled by a pack of rez dogs and had to get like 20 stitches in the face in order to keep from developing a serious penchant for menacingly saying ” Why Sooo.. Serious ??” If that wasn’t enough due to uncontrollable circumstances I almost lost my life’s work and myself in the process. A lot of stuff I cant even get into right now piled on top of all that. I even had to cancel a few weeks of REZFIT. Whoa! It’s been a real rough road but what doesn’t kill ya only makes you stronger…right?
Don’t feel bad like I ditched ya, I didn’t even call my momma in months because I simply couldn’t. She was about to send my brothers out looking for me in the bush again. lol sorry Ma! I answered like 4 emails in 4 months and for the most part I was only in front of a computer a handful of times. I’ll have to explain all that in a post on rooting down soon enough.
anyhoo I have a BIG ANNOUNCEMENT that I’ll be droppin’ so stay tuned and just understand if I don’t have time to answer any emails or comments for a little while,I’m workin’ hard elsewhere. I’ll barely get to the posts keep with me it’ll go better the more you get involved. I’ll get to everything when I can and I always keep my word, it’s just late sometimes. Like my friends say, There’s being on indian time and then there’s chief time. I’ve been working on something really important for all of you out there on this planet, lets do it epic mode!